Thursday, December 9, 2010
坏脾气
Friday, December 3, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
晕~
晕啊!!!早起身真的晕啊!!!
晕啊!!!上课上到晕啊!!!
晕啊!!!做工做到晕啊!!!
可不可以过得悠闲自在,别再让我那么晕了啊?
好想睡~zzzzZZzZzZZzZZzzzzzz~~~
Thursday, October 28, 2010
过去的未来。。。
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
上课记。。。
Monday, October 18, 2010
生日~
Monday, October 11, 2010
那一个周末。。。
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
文字与照片。。。
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
一个人的对话。
Thursday, September 30, 2010
雨过天晴的彩虹~
静的,喧哗的,中午。。。
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
忙碌。。。
BB计划。。。
Monday, September 27, 2010
搭火车记。。。
Friday, September 24, 2010
蒲公英的约定。。。
蒲公英,被风带走了,就会随风漂流,定不下来了。
星期五的心情。。。
Thursday, September 23, 2010
风和树。。。
Monday, September 20, 2010
你的,我的。。。
看一看房间,发现围绕着我的,很多都是你送的东西。
电脑,花,包包,枕头,大头娃娃(one piece),信。
看到这么多东西,脑海里浮现的,都是你的影子。
你送的礼物,都是很贴心的礼物,都是能够给我很大安慰的礼物。(花例外哪,那是没什么用处的,只是我纯粹的很爱花。。。 =P)
想一想,我似乎也没送过什么给你,看来我反而比你更粗枝大叶,不会做什么贴心的事。
每天每天,只会在脑海里想着你,却什么也不会做,原谅我,笨笨的。
思念。。。
思念,不一定要分离的时候才思念对方。
思念,当对方在你身边时,也可以思念他。
有一个能让你思念的人,感觉是甜的。
见不到你思念的人,感觉是苦的。
心情,随着这种感觉,不停地波动着。
因为你,我的心,没停下来过。现在的心情,是苦的。
Friday, September 17, 2010
我的阳光,他的酒窝。。。
我今天是第一次不用开车去上班,我的小司机,一大清早,就开着他的车到我家门口,接我去上班。
行李是他帮我搬的,一个早晨的拥抱,心是暖暖的。
开车途中,下雨了,我不喜欢没有阳光的早晨,他说:“你的阳光在你身边啊!”
这句话,听了,很感动,早上能看着他的感觉,很好,就算没有真正的阳光,心还是暖暖的。
酒窝有个小故事:话说人死了,如果要投胎,就要喝孟婆汤,把今生的故事全都忘记,才能投胎转世。有人,不想忘记今生的故事,誓不喝孟婆汤,孟婆答应了,可是要那个人守候一千年才能投胎转世,也在那人的身上做了记号,就是脸上的酒窝。
我把这个故事告诉了有酒窝的他。谢谢你,用一千年的守候,来到今生寻找你记忆里的我。对不起,我竟然把你忘了。
谢谢你,在茫茫人海中找到我。
下辈子,我会有酒窝的,换我,去找你。
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Thursday, September 16, 2010
Wednesday~
Wednesday, a day where you are not as busy as Monday, but not as blissful as Friday...
Wednesday, a day where you can start to plan for what to do over the weekends...
Wednesday, a day where you went out for dinner with friends and have a fun chit chatting session...
Wednesday, I love Wednesday, but not as much as Friday...
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
我的路。。。
家人对我们有恩,如果可以活在他们的期望下,跟随他们想要我们做的,他们当然会很高兴。
可是我的人生路,是我自己走的,家人快乐,但是自己却很痛苦,人生路,是这样走的吗?
我安排自己想走的路,虽然会很坎坷,可是我会很快乐。我选择这条路。
家人似乎不明白,嘴巴上说没关系,脸上却流露出那个让你内疚不已的表情。
这时候会想,难道我真的做错了?真的应该跟随家人的期望?
我决定了,对不起,我真的决定了,我很喜欢我现在的生活,我很喜欢。
我再重返校园,也算是因为你的期望而去做。所以,这条路,让我自己选吧。
一人退一步,放过我吧。
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Inception Night
Let's see where the suspicions begin:
1st: LYF asked me what time am I leaving office for dinner.
2nd: Denise Chia sms and ask how was the "date".
3rd: LYF sms and asked where am I having dinner.
The movie begins:
While I was having dinner in this Foong Lai restaurant in The Gardens, Chin Ai Wei and her bf Ng Kien Khai passed by the shop. I know something's wrong already, then they passed by again to go back. Then, four figures passed by the shop, which consist of the previous 2 person, and Denise Chia, and LYF.
Well well, they've planned it really well, I'm sure it took them a very long time to plan, and the person behind this plan, DENISE CHIA!!! Ok, so I continue to have my dinner, till they finished their dinner and passed by again, so I finished my dinner as well and meet them outside. Our good old Denise said she's going to have dinner with AW, but apparently its not, they plan the whole thing to follow me... =="
ok, then they show me their movie ticket of Best of Times that starts at 9.30pm, same as my movie time, so they watch their movie in GSC, and I watch mine in Signature. Half way through the movie, someone kicked my seat, I thought its an accident, but it gets stronger, I turned around, and I saw..... LYF and Denise Chia!!! OMG!!! I can't believe it!! They are even in the same movie as me!!! and sitting behind me!!! And I was watching INCEPTION... So I'm not sure its reality, or a dream, I just can't differentiate anymore...
To my frens, you guys are really good in planning~
Some pictures from that day...
Our Movie!
Food~
Dessert~
The paparazzi!!!
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
What A Day~
Then, out of no where, I started sneezing~ what is going on with me! Itchy nose, ish ish ish~~ waking up, with a painful ulcer in my mouth, why oh why~
Good thing about today, even though I forgot my breakfast, but I would like to thank my office for having Milo and oat in office, and thank my mom for asking me to store some “soh dah piah” in my office~ so at least I won’t starve through my morning~ :P
Second thing is that I am going for a movie tonight in The Gardens Signature, watching Inception, never been to The Gardens Signature before, wonder how much difference is it from the normal GSC.
And I just checked online, the movie, sold out!!!!! at 9.30pm!!!!! Sold out!!!! How come KL people are so rich!!!! And don’t they have to work tomorrow morning???!!!
Oh, suddenly misses Bora Bora Island, and I am STARVING!!!!
Friday, July 16, 2010
Dark Friday morning~
Haiz, then this morning the sky is so so dark, I cannot even see the top of KLCC. Which affects my mood a little, cause I love sunshine very much~ it seems a bit misty now and still not the best weather I am hoping for.
Today I am not as excited as I thought I would about Friday, maybe because i’m use to it already? Or maybe this Friday came too fast without me realizing it. I’m very looking forward to all the weddings coming up and I can work work work! When will I be a wedding planner myself one day~ that time when I was working in PM, LYF design my company logo, which looks as below:
I love the logo so much, and hopefully one day I can really use the logo for my shopfront, weddings are such happy event, people all dress their best and are delighted for the couples, at least that’s what I get to see on wedding~
Tonight going for steamboat with my fellow UTAR mates, nowadays I enjoyed small group outings more, easier to talk. I find more joy in talking and laughing with people around me~
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
My work in Salvatore Ferragamo~
Well, a lot of people never heard about this brand before. But they heard of LV, Chanel, Burberry, Coach, well, this brand is more on the high end fashion, compatible to LV. Maybe cause the name is a bit too long to pronounce, hence people pay less attention to it, that’s what I think, and you don really see pirated stuff for this brand.
I’ve been here for one month plus, and I’ve got myself two pairs of their shoes, their shoes is really good, and I’m willing to spend a bit more to get it, well, at a privilege price as I am the staff, I can’t afford to buy it at original price yet. Haha!
Yesterday I went to this Chanel private sale, hoping that I won’t spend anything, but it was so tempting, and I spend RM270. I bought a Coco Chanel perfume,
and some cosmetics. I told myself that maybe I will just go and take a look and spend less than RM70, which is the cash I brought. Then I went with my colleague, who brought along her credit card, then that’s how it happened, and *tada*, the RM270 bill came out… But its really worthy, as the perfume really smells so good. Working in this company really is my interest where I get to deal with so many fashion brands. Well, which in turn, caused me to spend more. Haha, but I feel really happy about that… :P
Parking is definitely a big problem in Golden Triangle, expensive and far from office. But no choice, I love this job, so im not leaving… parking is not that big of problem anyways.
So, Im happy at work!!! And I got my name card!! Lolz~ Crazy d~
Monday, July 12, 2010
Football Fever=Panda Eyes
OMG, I’m so sleepy!!! @@ Super painful eyes!!
Well, I choose to have all these panda eyes and be sleepy one, lolz~ what happened?
Well, I watched the world cup that started at 2.30am, ended at 5am, which is supposed to end at 4.30am, thanks to the extra time~ ==”
Well done Iniesta!!! That goal is really good! And I am so happy that Fernando Torres played in the last 15 minutes, well, too bad his previous injury has not recovered yet and he can’t perform well. But I’m happy that I can see him running on the field, lolz~ He’s so cute… :P
Now my whole body feel so sore, people football fever, football fever until self-fever d~ I feel that I’m in a super mess today, hair messy, make up messy, dress messy, everything messy!!! Not in the mood to work at all~ head feels so heavy~ eyes feel so heavy~ yawning non stop~ I bet a lot of people are also not in the mood to work, haha~
This Monday is not as blue as I tought, cos Spain won, and maybe im so sleepy that I don realize the stress of it, I hope I can leave work earlier today, so that I can go home and get some rest~
Well, overall I had a great weekend, Saturday night I went to this really nice restaurant in kelana jaya, will blog about that some other time, I haven’t upload the photos to my PC, lolz~
Friday, July 9, 2010
Friendless~
Well, its not that I don have friends, I actually have a lot of people I know, I get to hang out in big groups, go for vacations with a big group of friends, go to parties, and go out for drinking session.
What do I mean by friendless then? Well, friendless to me is that I don’t really have someone that I find myself able to fully trust the person, able to fully tell everything to the person, when I wanted to go out for a decent quiet outing, I realize, I have not much people to go with… It’s not like I have so many appointments waiting for me~
I can’t remember when does all this started, I no longer trust people with how I feel, I no longer reach out to people and tel them my problems, Im too good at hiding everything to myself, and not telling anybody about it.
Luckily im still good at listening, people can still come to me and talk to me about how they feel, im glad that people trust me with their problems, that I actually helped them by listening to them. Maybe one day, I will start to trust people again.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
逛夜市~
想起从前连碰都不敢碰的臭豆腐,到每个星期不得不吃,现在真的很想念它。
最令人怀念的,是哪,说短不短,说长不长的距离。
我喜欢走路到夜市去,因为那段路走得很开心,可以聊天,说笑,还有过马路,那些小小的细节,都能让我很开心。
真是天真,不知不觉,差不多有一年没去了,时间真的过得好快。
星期四,是我心情很沉重的一天。每天早上一起身,就会很想传简讯,约人去逛夜市,可是害怕被人拒绝,所以就止住了。然后等到七点半,就没事了。
都快一年了,还不能习惯吗?还是已经太过习惯了,习惯过着这种飘浮不定的生活。
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Remember?
This morning when I was driving, I heard this love song that makes me cry every time I heard of it, well, today again, it’s a no fail, I cried, well, not really the messy type, but close to tears I would say. That song describes about your past relationship, and the promises and all the sweet memories. Here it goes~
谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了 这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的 有一天 有一天都会停的
让时间说真话 虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后 我们都不知道会不会有遗憾
谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后
我们都累了 却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑 怎么说 怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么 也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人 等对方先说找分开的理由
谁还记得 爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中 看见了不同的天空
走的太远 终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我 要有两个相反的梦
谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后
Well, who would want to remember any sad memories, especially from past relationship where you are the one who got hurt… But its not easy when you just want to forget it in one day, its difficult especially when you still love him/her. This is a really sad song, and I’m almost immune listening to it, maybe cos I could not find any relation to myself anymore~
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Tuesday morning~
When I look at myself in the mirror, I can't help but pick up my eyeliner and apply it too... Tah dah!!! Full make up, without any special occassion, just normal work, and I put up my make up... ==" but putting on make up makes me feel happy... I feel more motivated at work, and then instead of using my usual Kenzo Flower,
I spray Estee Lauder Pleasure Exotic
before I went out for work~
On my way driving to office, I feel like going for outings today, but when I search through my mind, I actually dunno who to call for dinner together~ My ex-colleagues? Hmm, not sure whether they are free, my uni frens, its Tuesday, guess not evryone has the mood to go out like me, unless its Friday~ Hmm, feel like taking leave this Friday and go for vacation~
Monday, July 5, 2010
At work~
First time I blog at work, its been a really blissful Monday, my boss is not in, and I am so busy that I forgot the time past so fast! gosh, its half day already, half more to go and I can go home and chill~
Just now email with LYF and she said that she wants to plan a trip to PD, i want to go to the beach so much~ and she's going to stay in water chalet and I recommended Avilion that I've stayed before, which is superbly nice, i've been wanting to go again so much... vacation~
Then i tell her if you want go go with your partner, cos that place is very romantic and if go with frens u don really enjoy the ambience, maybe i stil need to wait for a long long time before i get myself a partner to go with~ being choosy... :P
Sunday, July 4, 2010
忘了吗?
我有一个朋友,最近交了新的男朋友,可是我没有为她感到开心,因为她刚分手不到一个星期。
我告诉她,我是过来人,我劝她想清楚,可是她说她觉得她真的喜欢他。
我说,祝你幸福吧,你知道自己在做什么就可以了。
可是当我读了一篇文章,我知道,她还没有放下从前的他。只是她以为她忘了。
还没放下的征兆:1)她一直说新的男朋友这个那个都比从前那个好。
2)她急着向所有人宣告她的新恋情。
3)她会谈起她所有从前的男朋友,唯独那个他。
全部征兆,她一个不少。
忘记一个人其实没有想象中那么容易。我知道。
很多时候以为自己很棒,以为自己和别人不一样,以为自己和坚强,忘得了... 你以为。
有时候我们只是不承认自己还放不下,心里明明很想他,却不敢放肆的去想,唯有说自己忘了。
她需要自己去了解这一切,因为我知道这个时候朋友的劝告是多余的,听不进去的。
我也不能怎样去劝她,因为我自己也自身难保,哪有资格去劝人。
我知道自己还没忘,只是想自己一个人好好活下去,我也不会假装忘了。
别人问我最近怎样,我会说我很好,因为我真的很好,因为我知道了我还没忘,也没有故意去忘,所以我很好。
接受总好过逃避...
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
突然好想你
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己
突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛
我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品
我们那麽甜 那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯 那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去
突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛
最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息
Thursday, May 13, 2010
我的星期三,12/5
今天我一个人吃午餐,一个人看着我的杂志,我不孤单。
今天我看到很多情侣,我没有感觉,我反而觉得,他们很可怜。
他们不知道自己什么时候会失去对方,所以都是享受当下,未来的计划,也未必能做到。
情侣们,对不起,你们快乐就好,别管我怎么去想。
今天的中午下起雨,细细绵绵的雨,我看着很多人来人往,撑伞的,淋雨的,心里想的,到底是什么。
雨天,特别有意境,特别想念身边的人。
遇见了很多不同性格的人,有些人,跟他说话,心情很好,有些人,句句玩针对,幸好我乐观,没被影响心情。
喜欢上了一个人的生活,身边还是不要多个人比较好,因为我要坚强点。
我是爱珍,一个正在进步的人。
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
醒过来了。。。
之前我会说,我的心情都是那么难过,很难写开心的。
现在的我,突然醒过来了。是真的醒过来了。
我的同事朋友都说我没得救,可是我觉得我好像被救上来了。
我醒了,不再为他哭了。
我醒了, 不再想念他了。
我醒了,知道我是时候开始拼自己的事业了。
我醒了,原来我不需要那么委屈自己。
我醒了,我做的事情在你眼里,什么都不是。
我醒了,我们已经什么都不是。
我不会再浪费时间和精神在你身上了。
谢谢你一直以来愿意应酬我。
现在你可以休息了,因为我不会再干扰你了。
祝你过得快乐,因为我发现,现在的我真的很快乐。
希望这算是一篇开心的部落格。
Saturday, May 1, 2010
累了...
我不知道你是看不懂,还是假装看不到。
我已经很努力了,真的很努力了,有些事情不需要我用口告诉你,你是看到的。
真的很累了,期待期待再期待,努力努力再努力。
你问我做了什么,我说我做了很多。
可能因为每一件所做的事,都带入了很多情感上的压迫,所以觉得自己做了很多。
真的很累了,每次发简讯给你,心跳都很快,不懂你会不会回复。
当你回复时,只是那短短的几句话,很失望,一天就这样被影响了。
每次都会猜你到底会怎样回复我,却和想象中不一样。
真的很累了,每次都会想办法找到你的消息,知道一切都好,很开心。
有时候很怕得知一些恐怖的消息,是一些我不想发生的事情,心情变好差。
因为你,我的心情就这样被你操控着。
我真的很累了,该停止了,为什么每次决定停止,却办不到。
Thursday, April 29, 2010
哭...
他买了一条钻石项链给我,我没哭。
他带了亲自煮的便当,到我公司来,我哭了。
她为了那份心意而哭。
他带我到外国旅游,我没哭。
他带我到我们初次相遇的地方,我哭了。
她为了能遇到他而哭。
他骂我,我没哭。
他对我不理不睬,我哭了。
她为了他的冷淡而哭。
他说我苯苯,我没哭。
他说我很烦,我哭了。
她为了他的敷衍而哭。
他怕我冷,把自己的冷衣给我,我没哭。
他怕我冷,紧紧地抱住我,我哭了。
她为了感受到他的体温而哭。
女人,哭的原因,都很单纯,只要是触动心的,就会流泪。
我为了你哭,是因为你住在我心里,你的一举一动,会触动在我心里的你,太用力,就会化成眼泪。
我不想再哭了,只有两个方式,一:请好好珍惜我,二:让我随时间流逝而忘记你。
他说他不爱我,我没哭,因为我崩溃了,他掏走了在我心了的他,掏空了,就感觉不到他了,哭不出来了。
Thursday, April 15, 2010
他的她,她的他
他,愿意在她发脾气的时候,不顾一切的逗她开心。
她,愿意在他发脾气的时候,做他身边的小鸟依人。
他,愿意在下雨的时候,替她撑伞,只为她遮雨,却把自己淋湿。
她,愿意在下雨的时候,就算有雨伞,也不拿出来,因为她宁愿两个人一起淋湿,也不要他一个人湿透。
他,愿意在睡觉时,看着她睡着了,才自己睡下去。
她,愿意在睡觉时,假装睡着,好让他也可以睡。
他,愿意在每一个月,陪她渡过他们的纪念日,带她去吃她爱吃的。
她,很期待每一个月的纪念日,因为他们又在一起一个月了,每一个月都是那么的重要,能在这天见到他,意义更深厚。
她,很爱花,常常要求他买红色玫瑰给她。
他,嘴上常说浪费钱,却愿意经常买花送她,给她惊喜,让她开心。
他,愿意在他们吵架时,知道她很难过,而三更半夜,驾着车,到她家来,给她一个拥抱,让她得到安全感。
她,只要那一个拥抱,就融化了。
她,很爱发脾气,甚至很无理取闹。
他,就算知道不是自己的错,却愿意想尽办法,让她气消,就算自己会一直挨骂。
他,愿意从她背后,紧紧地抱着她,因为她喜欢这种感觉。
她,经常背向着他,当他从背后拥抱着她,她轻轻掉泪,却不让他看到,因为她很庆幸,生命里有他。
他,愿意为了她,改变自己的形象,征求她的意见,打扮出门。
她,愿意为了他,留着她的直长发,无论如何都不剪短,因为他喜欢。
她,愿意花一整天,在他工作的地方等他下班,只因为想默默为他打气,看着他,就很幸福。
他,愿意在工作忙碌时,看着她微笑,让她知道,无论多忙,他心里有她。
他,很照顾她,虽然有时没那么细心,但她知道他是关心她的。
他,会生她的气,因为他不要她那么不成熟,要她从他这里学习,如何控制脾气,然后在社会里生存。
他,只在她面前嘟嘴,装可爱,扮无辜,因为她看见了,会笑。
她,会在他生病时,到他身边去,照顾他,因为她想看见强健的他。
她,会经常静静地看着他,他会问:“为什么看着我?”。她说:“没什么”。其实她是害怕有一天,她会失去他。
她,害怕他受伤,而整天唠叨,可是却让他去做他爱做的事,然后自己担心。
她,为了他,掉了很多眼泪,开心的,伤心的。
人家说,一个让你掉泪的男人,不值得去爱。
可是,就是因为她会为他掉泪,才证明了她在用心去爱他。动了心,就注定了会流泪。
不要怪她为什么那么爱哭,他要庆幸她会为他哭,在她哭时,好好疼她。
这,是她写给他的情书,因为,她不敢亲口对他说,她,很爱他。
他的她,她的他。
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Ignorance~
When I see him, I go emotionless, I don't really want to talk to him, I kinda want to hate him... I ignore whatever he said, try to ignore whatever he do, try to ignore whatever eye contact... The more I ignore, the more hatred came in... Is hate one good way to get rid of someone? Ignorance can help? Or face it with bravery?
Why do i ignore at first? Is it that I was too afraid that everything will come right back, that I need to suffer again, and that's why I choose to ignore? Maybe the ignorance will help to reduce any unwanted thoughts and everything will be okay...
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Cinderella 2~
Well, Cinderella and the prince live happily ever after... according to the fairy tale~ But I guess they forget to add in "to be continued"...
What happens after their marriage we never know, well, I kinda have a wild guess, let's me try to tell what happen after their marriage...
First, prince is too busy working and does not have much time for Cinderella... Poor thing Cinderella needs to wait for him to go home everyday, and carrying a pair of twins and clean the house everyday, like her same old life (well, no maids for her)...
He gets to work very early, and comes home very late, before she wakes up, he left, before he's back, she slept... Well, prince needs to work as well, fairy tale is not that fairy tale after all...
Second, the prince has a pretty servant that plays the role of his secretary, who helps him in his work, and takes care of him as well... The prince spent more time with the servant than with Cinderella, hence, he tends to come home really late, sometimes did not even come back...
Cinderella started to suspect, and she confronted the prince, prince admitted that he does not have feelings for Cinderella anymore, as she did not take good care of him or concern about him, but its the servant who's by his side all the time, hence, he filed for a divorce... Poor poor Cinderella needs to go back to her same old life with her stepmother and stepsister, and the only thing she is grateful of is having the pair of twins...
Poor poor Cinderella, being blamed for not spending enough time for him, is it her fault? Is it that she is not fulfilling her responsibilities? Or is it that reality is just cruel? Sorry to fairy tales, but it's not real, there's no happily ever after... Face the reality and live in it~
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Emotions~
I have a diary at home, that I express my feelings, and things that happen in my life, that should be kept in memory. Reading my diary, there's a mixture of happy, sadness, and the most I can see, is my heart felt emotions in my relationships. Can I say I am a compassionate person? I don't know.
I have a mixture of feelings right now, and I think the best way to express it is writing. I am thinking a lot recently, that I no longer able to keep the feelings to myself. People like to keep their feelings, guys especially, but how come girls experience more depression? Is it because we girls cannot cope with it, even though we've express it? Or we experience higher intensity of emotions?
Love, both guys and girls experienced that... It feels sweet, that can put a smile to your face every time you think about him... When things go wrong, the intensity of it, is twice as much of the sweetness you feel... It's always harder to let go of love, than fall in love... If it is easy, I won't be here, doubting my feelings... I feel tired of thinking and thinking and with all the guessing... is it the feeling of love that I have, or feeling of regret? That I'm not satisfy with my own decision?
I try to reduce the feeling, but I cannot... I want to forget, but deep down, I know I don't want to forget, don"t want to let go, I'm still holding on...