Thursday, December 9, 2010

坏脾气

脾气,每个人都有。

我的脾气,很坏,一点点小事,就会闹个天翻地覆。

曾经因为我的坏脾气,失去好多。

每一次都告诉自己,是时候修炼一下,改改脾气,不要再害人了。

可是有时,还是忍不住的,又发起脾气了,把身边的人轰炸得片甲不留。

这个世界上,没有任何人士有义务去忍受你的脾气的。

当身边出现了一个让你发脾气,独自忍受,还要哄你开心的那个人,你就是时候告诉自己,真的要改了,难道你想看到他难过吗?

别人也有脾气,却可以为了你忍住,处处护着你,难道你连这么一点小事都做不到吗?

谢谢一直陪在我身边,忍住我迁就我的人,我承诺,一定改得掉。


Friday, December 3, 2010

心累

读书读得好累,想写东西。

人一累,是不是整个人就会变得很悲观?

变得很容易生气?

喜欢找人发泄,然后心情好就对人很好,这样对别人也太不公平了。

心能承受的压力,到底有多大。

好累。。。

Monday, November 29, 2010

晕~

晕啊!!!做功课做到晕啊!!!

晕啊!!!早起身真的晕啊!!!

晕啊!!!上课上到晕啊!!!

晕啊!!!做工做到晕啊!!!

可不可以过得悠闲自在,别再让我那么晕了啊?

好想睡~zzzzZZzZzZZzZZzzzzzz~~~

Thursday, October 28, 2010

过去的未来。。。

想当年,我们还在小学时,未来就是上中学,希望能获得好多自由。

想当年,上了中学,没得到所想的自由,就期望未来的十八岁。

想当年,十八岁了,自由就没了,反而有了烦恼,该上大学还是出来闯。

想当年,十八岁了,路,还是爸爸铺的,他说,上大学吧,我,选了心理系。

想当年,上大学,想着未来,当个心理辅导师吧。

想当年,读了两年大学,才发现,未来我是不想当辅导师,想要没那么拘谨的工作。

想当年,以为自己很喜欢和training有关的工作,未来,就朝这里发展吧。

出来社会了,才发现,一切一切过去所想的未来,都不是我的未来。

自由,我还是没有,被工作和课业绑住了。

心理系,没有用武之地。

training,做了三个月就辞去的工作。

现在做的,在我预料意外,没为自己打算过的未来。

现在,我的未来会在两年半毕业。

现在,我的未来会有自己的一门生意。

现在,我的未来会有一栋盖在海边的别墅。

现在,我的未来会在海边开着度假屋卖冰淇淋。


现在,我离未来还有多远?

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

上课记。。。

我不要读书~~~

终于开课了,不喜欢~~~

又要做功课,又要考试了,不同的是现在还要做工~~~

哭哭哭哭哭~~~

没得经常出去玩了~~~

往好的那方面想,对我是好的,为自己增值~~~

让自己比较有知识,以后如果真的要做生意,也不会说误打误撞~~~

为自己的未来奋斗到底!!!Aza Aza Fighting!!!

Monday, October 18, 2010

生日~

又老一岁了,我有好多好多生日愿望,比如:“。。。”还是保持神秘比较好,不然就不会实现哪~=P

时间就在半夜十二点,十月十六号,电话响了起来,是他,打来问我要吃甜品吗。

他在我的生日,送来了我最爱吃的千层蛋糕,真的被吓到了。完全没预料到的惊喜。

他说,他买了花,忘了带,可是他托了邮差叔叔送来了,检查邮箱,花就在里面,他撒谎的技术,很烂。

蛋糕真的很好吃,他不要我在生日的时候一个人,就偷偷过来陪我。

星期六,我要上课,他因此而感到很内疚,没得带我去特别的地方玩。

晚上,和一班朋友吃火锅,吃得好开心,那么多人陪我庆祝生日。

星期日,照常上课,这次,换我给他惊喜了。

告诉他我八点半要起床,其实七点就醒来了,洗刷准备完毕就出门去买麦当当早餐。

八点二十分他打来要叫醒我,我在开车,没接。

准时八点半到他家门口,打给他,告诉他我好想吃麦当当。他说要来带我去吃,我说你开门就有得吃了。

他跑着来开门,看到我的那个表情更是可爱。

我去上课,他去办他的事情。陪我吃午餐,再继续。

放学了,本来要去看电影,后来没有,我们去公园散步。晚上,吃韩国餐。


就这样,生日,过完了。谢谢大家的祝福!=)

Monday, October 11, 2010

那一个周末。。。

那一个周末,我们开着车,哼着歌。

那一个周末,你的妈妈被我们逗得好开心。

那一个周末,我学做你最爱吃的番薯糕。

那一个周末, 我们去了很可爱的餐厅。

那一个周末,我们看到了很经典的电话亭。

那一个周末,我们见到了你的朋友。

那一个周末,你一一告诉我你从小在那儿长大的故事。

那一个周末,我看见了把你栽培得很好的学校。

那一个周末,我们吹着凉凉的海风。

那一个周末,我骑上了旋转木马。

那一个周末,你把我照顾得无微不至。

那一个周末,我们讨论了很多大道理。

那一个周末,发生了严重的车祸,我们没事,但心情,好沉重。

那一个周末,是“十全十美”,我们一起度过这一天。


那一个周末,我永远记得。


Wednesday, October 6, 2010

文字与照片。。。

今天我又读了很多篇部落格,不小心的又读完了一个博客的部落格。

那篇部落格,都是文字,照片,不多。

很多人都说,照片很容易能表达一个人的思绪。

可是当我在看部落格时,发现我一直在跟随的,都是充满文字的部落格。

我觉得,文字比较能贴切地表达一个人的心情。

看着那些长篇大论的文章,脑海里就不是会浮现出文字所带来的画面。

可能我想象力比较丰富吧,总是喜欢自己制造画面。

文字,很奥妙,它能带人进入一个意境,让你在脑海里想象故事情节。

虽然说照片也能表达思绪,可是我觉得一张照片看下去,能透露的不多。

可是一张照片,配上文字,一切,变得更明确。


我的部落格,还是以文字为主比较像我。


Tuesday, October 5, 2010

一个人的对话。

什么时候开始,已经找不到说话的对象?

什么时候开始,已经不能把秘密告诉任何人?

什么时候开始,身边的人都好像陌生人?

什么时候开始,不再相信人?

什么时候开始,大家都是在做表面功夫?

什么时候开始,乐观的人变得不再乐观?

什么时候开始,每个人都在欺骗每个人?

一个玩笑,一次思考,一种领悟。

一个人的对话,没有人与人之间那么复杂。

我,又一个人,对话了。

Thursday, September 30, 2010

雨过天晴的彩虹~

我很喜欢彩虹,曾经在一天内看见了三道彩虹,不同的地方,曾经为此欣喜若狂。

那五颜六色的彩虹,看起来就充满希望,很灿烂。

彩虹,是在下过雨后有阳光的天空才会出现。

雨天,就像吵架,有时轰轰烈烈,有时只是闹闹脾气,就像暴风雨,和毛毛雨。

阳光,就像安慰,有时是大大的惊喜,有时是小小的感动,就像很猛烈的阳光,或很温暖的阳光。

彩虹,就像笑容,不管是怎样的雨天,不管是怎样的阳光,只要是雨过天晴了,彩虹就会出现,都是那么灿烂。

是自然现象,无需任何理由,只要在吵架时给予适当的安慰,就能看见笑容。

如果大家都互不退让,雨一直在下,阳光,就不会出现,更不用说彩虹了。

所以,我喜欢彩虹,它,代表雨过天晴。
我们的雨天后,一定会有阳光。笑一个。看见彩虹了。=)



静的,喧哗的,中午。。。

在公司吃着便当,虽然不是自己一个人在公司,可是却安静得可怕。

每个人都在享受自己一小时的午餐,都在做自己的事,没有多说话。

陪着我们的,是收音机的音乐。

这种下午,很宁静,让我又不一样的体验。

想起以前在旧公司,朋友不多,就那三两个。

以前的午餐,有时一个人在暗暗的公司吃,有时约在一起带便当去公司吃,有时会一起出去吃。

那时我们话很多,围在一起就讲个不停,不停哈拉,大辣辣地笑。

那种下午,又是不同的体验。

我喜欢哪一种?



笑了笑,喧哗的宁静吧。

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

忙碌。。。

何谓忙碌?

是忙到只睡一个小时?

是忙到精神压力?

是忙到没时间去旅行?

是忙到忽略了心爱的人,导致分离?

有些人觉得忙碌,是在工作时忙得不可开交,虽然不用加班,对他们来说,在工作时无所事事,就不算忙碌。

有些人觉得忙碌,是得加班,回到家只能睡一两个小时,再赶去上班,对他们来说,能准时下班,就不算忙碌。

有些人觉得忙碌,是因为早上工作了, 放工要回家陪小孩温习功课,听妻子诉苦,对他们来说,回家能倒头睡,就不算忙碌。

有些人觉得忙碌,是因为他们为了工作,没时间陪家人,对他们来说,能回家教孩子做功课,和妻子说话,就不算忙碌。

每个人对忙碌的定义都不一样,是取决于你对一件事的热诚,或者什么事让你觉得幸福和快乐。


你,忙吗?

BB计划。。。

那天看回由古天乐和成龙的宝贝计划。。。

这套戏真的很好看,好笑但也让人很感动,BB太可爱了。。。

看这套戏我会哭,就在于BB快要死的时候,成龙把电能穿过自己传送给BB,让他能恢复心跳,真的哭了。。。

他们在一起相处的时间久了,感情就来了,从本来的不知所措,到后来变成超级爸爸妈妈,真的好感人。。。

当父母的,为孩子牺牲很多,只为了好好守护他们。。。



爸爸妈妈,谢谢你们。。。

Monday, September 27, 2010

搭火车记。。。

忘了自己最后一次搭火车是什么时候了。。。

今天在没办法的情况下,搭了火车到Pavilion一趟。。。

从公司走到火车站,需要五分钟,买了票,等火车。。。

等火车的感觉,让我觉得很纳闷,很没心情,心想还是开车好。。。

回想以前,搭火车是多么开心的事,不会驾车,却能到处走走。。。

现在会开车了,就开始忽略了火车的存在,甚至觉得很厌恶,可是今天,它带我到目的地,我又开始注意到它的重要性。。。

到了星星山那站,下了车,就走了一小段路去Pavilion。。。

突然发现,这条路,我好久没有走了,变了好多,突然好有感触。。。

回家路上,乌云密布,我加快了脚步,成功赶在下雨前,回到公司。。。



现在,外面下雨了。。。



Friday, September 24, 2010

蒲公英的约定。。。

蒲公英,细细的,那么的弱不禁风,那么的脆弱。

蒲公英,像女人的心,一样的那么弱不禁风,一样的脆弱。

风,柔柔的,那么的撩人,那么的亲切。

风,像女人爱,一样的撩人,一样的亲切。

蒲公英,被风带走了,就会随风漂流,定不下来了。

女人的心,被爱情带走了,就随着爱情漂流,永远那么的漂浮不定,起起落落。



蒲公英和风,做了一个约定,它告诉风,如果风没有那么大的能力带着蒲公英流浪,会半途把蒲公英丢弃在陌生的地方,那么请风别干扰蒲公英的生活,就让蒲公英静静的,在原地。

星期五的心情。。。

忙了一个星期,终于又到了满心期待的星期五。

星期五,感觉上每个人都是很懒散的,抱着那种赶快放工的心情。

星期五,都是上班族的天堂,那些星期六要工作的,对不起哪。

星期五,免不了的,还是和朋友聚聚餐,看场电影,去拍拖,游子呢,就回乡,要不然,就去旅行,来个三天两夜,轻松一下。

星期五,是粉红色的,无论工作多么压力,脸上还是会挂着笑容。

星期五,都会放肆的拖到很夜才睡,就算是无所事事的。

现在阳光普照,看来,连天空也替上班族开心了~

Thursday, September 23, 2010

风和树。。。

风,就像女人的情绪,来的时候,完全没有征兆。

树,就像男人的情绪,不管遇到什么,都保持着原有的威严。

风,就像女人的情绪,来匆匆,去匆匆。

树,就像男人的情绪,从外表看起来完全没有动静。

风,就像女人的情绪,无缘无故的会吹得很凶。

树,就像男人的情绪,不管风吹得多凶,它都会默默承受,一动也不动。

风,还是应该为树着想,如果一直这样吹,树有一天是会倒的。

Monday, September 20, 2010

你的,我的。。。

正在用你的电脑上网,你把电脑弄得像是我自己的电脑,全都是我的名字照片。

看一看房间,发现围绕着我的,很多都是你送的东西。

电脑,花,包包,枕头,大头娃娃(one piece),信。

看到这么多东西,脑海里浮现的,都是你的影子。

你送的礼物,都是很贴心的礼物,都是能够给我很大安慰的礼物。(花例外哪,那是没什么用处的,只是我纯粹的很爱花。。。 =P)

想一想,我似乎也没送过什么给你,看来我反而比你更粗枝大叶,不会做什么贴心的事。

每天每天,只会在脑海里想着你,却什么也不会做,原谅我,笨笨的。

思念。。。

思念,感觉甜甜的,但也带点苦。

思念,不一定要分离的时候才思念对方。

思念,当对方在你身边时,也可以思念他。

有一个能让你思念的人,感觉是甜的。

见不到你思念的人,感觉是苦的。

心情,随着这种感觉,不停地波动着。

因为你,我的心,没停下来过。现在的心情,是苦的。

Friday, September 17, 2010

我的阳光,他的酒窝。。。

今天是星期五,我接下来的三天都不会在家。

我今天是第一次不用开车去上班,我的小司机,一大清早,就开着他的车到我家门口,接我去上班。

行李是他帮我搬的,一个早晨的拥抱,心是暖暖的。

开车途中,下雨了,我不喜欢没有阳光的早晨,他说:“你的阳光在你身边啊!”

这句话,听了,很感动,早上能看着他的感觉,很好,就算没有真正的阳光,心还是暖暖的。

酒窝有个小故事:话说人死了,如果要投胎,就要喝孟婆汤,把今生的故事全都忘记,才能投胎转世。有人,不想忘记今生的故事,誓不喝孟婆汤,孟婆答应了,可是要那个人守候一千年才能投胎转世,也在那人的身上做了记号,就是脸上的酒窝。

我把这个故事告诉了有酒窝的他。谢谢你,用一千年的守候,来到今生寻找你记忆里的我。对不起,我竟然把你忘了。

谢谢你,在茫茫人海中找到我。

下辈子,我会有酒窝的,换我,去找你。

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Thursday, September 16, 2010

Wednesday~

Wednesday, mid of the week, away from Monday blue, and close to Friday cheers...

Wednesday, a day where you are not as busy as Monday, but not as blissful as Friday...

Wednesday, a day where you can start to plan for what to do over the weekends...

Wednesday, a day where you went out for dinner with friends and have a fun chit chatting session...

Wednesday, I love Wednesday, but not as much as Friday...

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

我的路。。。

自己的人生,是要活在家人的期望下,还是跟随自己的方向?

家人对我们有恩,如果可以活在他们的期望下,跟随他们想要我们做的,他们当然会很高兴。

可是我的人生路,是我自己走的,家人快乐,但是自己却很痛苦,人生路,是这样走的吗?

我安排自己想走的路,虽然会很坎坷,可是我会很快乐。我选择这条路。

家人似乎不明白,嘴巴上说没关系,脸上却流露出那个让你内疚不已的表情。

这时候会想,难道我真的做错了?真的应该跟随家人的期望?

我决定了,对不起,我真的决定了,我很喜欢我现在的生活,我很喜欢。

我再重返校园,也算是因为你的期望而去做。所以,这条路,让我自己选吧。

一人退一步,放过我吧。

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Inception Night

This post is going to sound like a movie, cause everything that happened, gives my heart a leap.

Let's see where the suspicions begin:
1st: LYF asked me what time am I leaving office for dinner.
2nd: Denise Chia sms and ask how was the "date".
3rd: LYF sms and asked where am I having dinner.

The movie begins:
While I was having dinner in this Foong Lai restaurant in The Gardens, Chin Ai Wei and her bf Ng Kien Khai passed by the shop. I know something's wrong already, then they passed by again to go back. Then, four figures passed by the shop, which consist of the previous 2 person, and Denise Chia, and LYF.

Well well, they've planned it really well, I'm sure it took them a very long time to plan, and the person behind this plan, DENISE CHIA!!! Ok, so I continue to have my dinner, till they finished their dinner and passed by again, so I finished my dinner as well and meet them outside. Our good old Denise said she's going to have dinner with AW, but apparently its not, they plan the whole thing to follow me... =="

ok, then they show me their movie ticket of Best of Times that starts at 9.30pm, same as my movie time, so they watch their movie in GSC, and I watch mine in Signature. Half way through the movie, someone kicked my seat, I thought its an accident, but it gets stronger, I turned around, and I saw..... LYF and Denise Chia!!! OMG!!! I can't believe it!! They are even in the same movie as me!!! and sitting behind me!!! And I was watching INCEPTION... So I'm not sure its reality, or a dream, I just can't differentiate anymore...

To my frens, you guys are really good in planning~

Some pictures from that day...
Our Movie!

















Food~


















Dessert~














The paparazzi!!!

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

What A Day~

I forgot my energy breakfast today!! Which consists of a cup of milk and two pieces of bread, how can I forget them~ I cannot forgive myself~ I really miss my breakfast~ I feel fatigue without my cup of milk as an energy booster.

Then, out of no where, I started sneezing~ what is going on with me! Itchy nose, ish ish ish~~ waking up, with a painful ulcer in my mouth, why oh why~

Good thing about today, even though I forgot my breakfast, but I would like to thank my office for having Milo and oat in office, and thank my mom for asking me to store some “soh dah piah” in my office~ so at least I won’t starve through my morning~ :P

Second thing is that I am going for a movie tonight in The Gardens Signature, watching Inception, never been to The Gardens Signature before, wonder how much difference is it from the normal GSC.
And I just checked online, the movie, sold out!!!!! at 9.30pm!!!!! Sold out!!!! How come KL people are so rich!!!! And don’t they have to work tomorrow morning???!!!

Oh, suddenly misses Bora Bora Island, and I am STARVING!!!!

Friday, July 16, 2010

Dark Friday morning~

This morning when I leave my house, expecting that no jam, as it’s usually very smooth on a Friday morning, but surprisingly, today, very jam… ==”

Haiz, then this morning the sky is so so dark, I cannot even see the top of KLCC. Which affects my mood a little, cause I love sunshine very much~ it seems a bit misty now and still not the best weather I am hoping for.

Today I am not as excited as I thought I would about Friday, maybe because i’m use to it already? Or maybe this Friday came too fast without me realizing it. I’m very looking forward to all the weddings coming up and I can work work work! When will I be a wedding planner myself one day~ that time when I was working in PM, LYF design my company logo, which looks as below:

I love the logo so much, and hopefully one day I can really use the logo for my shopfront, weddings are such happy event, people all dress their best and are delighted for the couples, at least that’s what I get to see on wedding~

Tonight going for steamboat with my fellow UTAR mates, nowadays I enjoyed small group outings more, easier to talk. I find more joy in talking and laughing with people around me~

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

My work in Salvatore Ferragamo~

Well, working as an admin executive, I deal mostly with paper works, and HR related matters, so it is partly related to Psychology, which is human resource. It feels really good working in a small company, surrounded by fashion fashion fashion, and magazines, perfumes, brands brands brands.

Well, a lot of people never heard about this brand before. But they heard of LV, Chanel, Burberry, Coach, well, this brand is more on the high end fashion, compatible to LV. Maybe cause the name is a bit too long to pronounce, hence people pay less attention to it, that’s what I think, and you don really see pirated stuff for this brand.

I’ve been here for one month plus, and I’ve got myself two pairs of their shoes, their shoes is really good, and I’m willing to spend a bit more to get it, well, at a privilege price as I am the staff, I can’t afford to buy it at original price yet. Haha!

Yesterday I went to this Chanel private sale, hoping that I won’t spend anything, but it was so tempting, and I spend RM270. I bought a Coco Chanel perfume,
and some cosmetics. I told myself that maybe I will just go and take a look and spend less than RM70, which is the cash I brought. Then I went with my colleague, who brought along her credit card, then that’s how it happened, and *tada*, the RM270 bill came out… But its really worthy, as the perfume really smells so good. Working in this company really is my interest where I get to deal with so many fashion brands. Well, which in turn, caused me to spend more. Haha, but I feel really happy about that… :P

Parking is definitely a big problem in Golden Triangle, expensive and far from office. But no choice, I love this job, so im not leaving… parking is not that big of problem anyways.

So, Im happy at work!!! And I got my name card!! Lolz~ Crazy d~

Monday, July 12, 2010

Football Fever=Panda Eyes


OMG, I’m so sleepy!!! @@ Super painful eyes!!

Well, I choose to have all these panda eyes and be sleepy one, lolz~ what happened?

Well, I watched the world cup that started at 2.30am, ended at 5am, which is supposed to end at 4.30am, thanks to the extra time~ ==”

Well done Iniesta!!! That goal is really good! And I am so happy that Fernando Torres played in the last 15 minutes, well, too bad his previous injury has not recovered yet and he can’t perform well. But I’m happy that I can see him running on the field, lolz~ He’s so cute… :P

Now my whole body feel so sore, people football fever, football fever until self-fever d~ I feel that I’m in a super mess today, hair messy, make up messy, dress messy, everything messy!!! Not in the mood to work at all~ head feels so heavy~ eyes feel so heavy~ yawning non stop~ I bet a lot of people are also not in the mood to work, haha~

This Monday is not as blue as I tought, cos Spain won, and maybe im so sleepy that I don realize the stress of it, I hope I can leave work earlier today, so that I can go home and get some rest~

Well, overall I had a great weekend, Saturday night I went to this really nice restaurant in kelana jaya, will blog about that some other time, I haven’t upload the photos to my PC, lolz~

Friday, July 9, 2010

Friendless~


Well, its not that I don have friends, I actually have a lot of people I know, I get to hang out in big groups, go for vacations with a big group of friends, go to parties, and go out for drinking session.

What do I mean by friendless then? Well, friendless to me is that I don’t really have someone that I find myself able to fully trust the person, able to fully tell everything to the person, when I wanted to go out for a decent quiet outing, I realize, I have not much people to go with… It’s not like I have so many appointments waiting for me~

I can’t remember when does all this started, I no longer trust people with how I feel, I no longer reach out to people and tel them my problems, Im too good at hiding everything to myself, and not telling anybody about it.
Luckily im still good at listening, people can still come to me and talk to me about how they feel, im glad that people trust me with their problems, that I actually helped them by listening to them. Maybe one day, I will start to trust people again.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

逛夜市~

每逢星期四,就会想到家里附近的夜市。以前每次只要没有下雨,就会去逛逛。
想起从前连碰都不敢碰的臭豆腐,到每个星期不得不吃,现在真的很想念它。
最令人怀念的,是哪,说短不短,说长不长的距离。
我喜欢走路到夜市去,因为那段路走得很开心,可以聊天,说笑,还有过马路,那些小小的细节,都能让我很开心。
真是天真,不知不觉,差不多有一年没去了,时间真的过得好快。
星期四,是我心情很沉重的一天。每天早上一起身,就会很想传简讯,约人去逛夜市,可是害怕被人拒绝,所以就止住了。然后等到七点半,就没事了。
都快一年了,还不能习惯吗?还是已经太过习惯了,习惯过着这种飘浮不定的生活。

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Remember?


This morning when I was driving, I heard this love song that makes me cry every time I heard of it, well, today again, it’s a no fail, I cried, well, not really the messy type, but close to tears I would say. That song describes about your past relationship, and the promises and all the sweet memories. Here it goes~
谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手  说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了 这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的 有一天 有一天都会停的
让时间说真话 虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后 我们都不知道会不会有遗憾
谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后
我们都累了 却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑 怎么说 怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么 也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人 等对方先说找分开的理由
谁还记得 爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中 看见了不同的天空
走的太远 终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我 要有两个相反的梦
谁还记得 是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手 说要一起走到最后
Well, who would want to remember any sad memories, especially from past relationship where you are the one who got hurt… But its not easy when you just want to forget it in one day, its difficult especially when you still love him/her. This is a really sad song, and I’m almost immune listening to it, maybe cos I could not find any relation to myself anymore~

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Tuesday morning~

This morning I woke up feeling a bit delighted, I don feel like wearing spectacles today, so I put on my contact lenses, and feel that its not enough, so I put on mascara, after applying mascara, I scribble through my wardrobe to get the right top and skirt, well, eventually its not the "It" kind of outfit, but I managed to pull it together~

When I look at myself in the mirror, I can't help but pick up my eyeliner and apply it too... Tah dah!!! Full make up, without any special occassion, just normal work, and I put up my make up... ==" but putting on make up makes me feel happy... I feel more motivated at work, and then instead of using my usual Kenzo Flower,
I spray Estee Lauder Pleasure Exotic
before I went out for work~

On my way driving to office, I feel like going for outings today, but when I search through my mind, I actually dunno who to call for dinner together~ My ex-colleagues? Hmm, not sure whether they are free, my uni frens, its Tuesday, guess not evryone has the mood to go out like me, unless its Friday~ Hmm, feel like taking leave this Friday and go for vacation~

Monday, July 5, 2010

At work~


First time I blog at work, its been a really blissful Monday, my boss is not in, and I am so busy that I forgot the time past so fast! gosh, its half day already, half more to go and I can go home and chill~

Just now email with LYF and she said that she wants to plan a trip to PD, i want to go to the beach so much~ and she's going to stay in water chalet and I recommended Avilion that I've stayed before, which is superbly nice, i've been wanting to go again so much... vacation~

Then i tell her if you want go go with your partner, cos that place is very romantic and if go with frens u don really enjoy the ambience, maybe i stil need to wait for a long long time before i get myself a partner to go with~ being choosy... :P

Sunday, July 4, 2010

忘了吗?



我有一个朋友,最近交了新的男朋友,可是我没有为她感到开心,因为她刚分手不到一个星期。

我告诉她,我是过来人,我劝她想清楚,可是她说她觉得她真的喜欢他。

我说,祝你幸福吧,你知道自己在做什么就可以了。

可是当我读了一篇文章,我知道,她还没有放下从前的他。只是她以为她忘了。

还没放下的征兆:1)她一直说新的男朋友这个那个都比从前那个好。
2)她急着向所有人宣告她的新恋情。
3)她会谈起她所有从前的男朋友,唯独那个他。
全部征兆,她一个不少。

忘记一个人其实没有想象中那么容易。我知道。

很多时候以为自己很棒,以为自己和别人不一样,以为自己和坚强,忘得了... 你以为。

有时候我们只是不承认自己还放不下,心里明明很想他,却不敢放肆的去想,唯有说自己忘了。

她需要自己去了解这一切,因为我知道这个时候朋友的劝告是多余的,听不进去的。

我也不能怎样去劝她,因为我自己也自身难保,哪有资格去劝人。

我知道自己还没忘,只是想自己一个人好好活下去,我也不会假装忘了。

别人问我最近怎样,我会说我很好,因为我真的很好,因为我知道了我还没忘,也没有故意去忘,所以我很好。

接受总好过逃避...

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

突然好想你

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜 那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯 那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息

Thursday, May 13, 2010

我的星期三,12/5

今天我去了很多地方,见了很多人,说了很多话。

今天我一个人吃午餐,一个人看着我的杂志,我不孤单。

今天我看到很多情侣,我没有感觉,我反而觉得,他们很可怜。

他们不知道自己什么时候会失去对方,所以都是享受当下,未来的计划,也未必能做到。

情侣们,对不起,你们快乐就好,别管我怎么去想。

今天的中午下起雨,细细绵绵的雨,我看着很多人来人往,撑伞的,淋雨的,心里想的,到底是什么。

雨天,特别有意境,特别想念身边的人。

遇见了很多不同性格的人,有些人,跟他说话,心情很好,有些人,句句玩针对,幸好我乐观,没被影响心情。

喜欢上了一个人的生活,身边还是不要多个人比较好,因为我要坚强点。

我是爱珍,一个正在进步的人。

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

醒过来了。。。

我的同事问我,为什么我的部落格都那么伤感,要我写一篇开心一点的部落格。
之前我会说,我的心情都是那么难过,很难写开心的。

现在的我,突然醒过来了。是真的醒过来了。
我的同事朋友都说我没得救,可是我觉得我好像被救上来了。

我醒了,不再为他哭了。
我醒了, 不再想念他了。
我醒了,知道我是时候开始拼自己的事业了。
我醒了,原来我不需要那么委屈自己。
我醒了,我做的事情在你眼里,什么都不是。
我醒了,我们已经什么都不是。

我不会再浪费时间和精神在你身上了。
谢谢你一直以来愿意应酬我。
现在你可以休息了,因为我不会再干扰你了。
祝你过得快乐,因为我发现,现在的我真的很快乐。
希望这算是一篇开心的部落格。

Saturday, May 1, 2010

累了...

真的很累了,一次又一次的难过,一次又一次的期待。
我不知道你是看不懂,还是假装看不到。
我已经很努力了,真的很努力了,有些事情不需要我用口告诉你,你是看到的。

真的很累了,期待期待再期待,努力努力再努力。
你问我做了什么,我说我做了很多。
可能因为每一件所做的事,都带入了很多情感上的压迫,所以觉得自己做了很多。

真的很累了,每次发简讯给你,心跳都很快,不懂你会不会回复。
当你回复时,只是那短短的几句话,很失望,一天就这样被影响了。
每次都会猜你到底会怎样回复我,却和想象中不一样。

真的很累了,每次都会想办法找到你的消息,知道一切都好,很开心。
有时候很怕得知一些恐怖的消息,是一些我不想发生的事情,心情变好差。
因为你,我的心情就这样被你操控着。

我真的很累了,该停止了,为什么每次决定停止,却办不到。

Thursday, April 29, 2010

哭...

哭,是我的天性。

他买了一条钻石项链给我,我没哭。
他带了亲自煮的便当,到我公司来,我哭了。
她为了那份心意而哭。

他带我到外国旅游,我没哭。
他带我到我们初次相遇的地方,我哭了。
她为了能遇到他而哭。

他骂我,我没哭。
他对我不理不睬,我哭了。
她为了他的冷淡而哭。

他说我苯苯,我没哭。
他说我很烦,我哭了。
她为了他的敷衍而哭。

他怕我冷,把自己的冷衣给我,我没哭。
他怕我冷,紧紧地抱住我,我哭了。
她为了感受到他的体温而哭。

女人,哭的原因,都很单纯,只要是触动心的,就会流泪。
我为了你哭,是因为你住在我心里,你的一举一动,会触动在我心里的你,太用力,就会化成眼泪。
我不想再哭了,只有两个方式,一:请好好珍惜我,二:让我随时间流逝而忘记你。

他说他不爱我,我没哭,因为我崩溃了,他掏走了在我心了的他,掏空了,就感觉不到他了,哭不出来了。

Thursday, April 15, 2010

他的她,她的他

他,愿意在她发脾气的时候,不顾一切的逗她开心。

她,愿意在他发脾气的时候,做他身边的小鸟依人。

他,愿意在下雨的时候,替她撑伞,只为她遮雨,却把自己淋湿。

她,愿意在下雨的时候,就算有雨伞,也不拿出来,因为她宁愿两个人一起淋湿,也不要他一个人湿透。

他,愿意在睡觉时,看着她睡着了,才自己睡下去。

她,愿意在睡觉时,假装睡着,好让他也可以睡。

他,愿意在每一个月,陪她渡过他们的纪念日,带她去吃她爱吃的。

她,很期待每一个月的纪念日,因为他们又在一起一个月了,每一个月都是那么的重要,能在这天见到他,意义更深厚。

她,很爱花,常常要求他买红色玫瑰给她。

他,嘴上常说浪费钱,却愿意经常买花送她,给她惊喜,让她开心。

他,愿意在他们吵架时,知道她很难过,而三更半夜,驾着车,到她家来,给她一个拥抱,让她得到安全感。

她,只要那一个拥抱,就融化了。

她,很爱发脾气,甚至很无理取闹。

他,就算知道不是自己的错,却愿意想尽办法,让她气消,就算自己会一直挨骂。

他,愿意从她背后,紧紧地抱着她,因为她喜欢这种感觉。

她,经常背向着他,当他从背后拥抱着她,她轻轻掉泪,却不让他看到,因为她很庆幸,生命里有他。

他,愿意为了她,改变自己的形象,征求她的意见,打扮出门。

她,愿意为了他,留着她的直长发,无论如何都不剪短,因为他喜欢。

她,愿意花一整天,在他工作的地方等他下班,只因为想默默为他打气,看着他,就很幸福。

他,愿意在工作忙碌时,看着她微笑,让她知道,无论多忙,他心里有她。

他,很照顾她,虽然有时没那么细心,但她知道他是关心她的。

他,会生她的气,因为他不要她那么不成熟,要她从他这里学习,如何控制脾气,然后在社会里生存。

他,只在她面前嘟嘴,装可爱,扮无辜,因为她看见了,会笑。

她,会在他生病时,到他身边去,照顾他,因为她想看见强健的他。

她,会经常静静地看着他,他会问:“为什么看着我?”。她说:“没什么”。其实她是害怕有一天,她会失去他。

她,害怕他受伤,而整天唠叨,可是却让他去做他爱做的事,然后自己担心。

她,为了他,掉了很多眼泪,开心的,伤心的。

人家说,一个让你掉泪的男人,不值得去爱。

可是,就是因为她会为他掉泪,才证明了她在用心去爱他。动了心,就注定了会流泪。

不要怪她为什么那么爱哭,他要庆幸她会为他哭,在她哭时,好好疼她。

这,是她写给他的情书,因为,她不敢亲口对他说,她,很爱他。

他的她,她的他。

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Ignorance~

I never knew I can be so cool... Kinda like loss of passion... When I was on the phone talking to my friend, my another friend who heard our conversation said I sounded very cool, kind of expressionless...

When I see him, I go emotionless, I don't really want to talk to him, I kinda want to hate him... I ignore whatever he said, try to ignore whatever he do, try to ignore whatever eye contact... The more I ignore, the more hatred came in... Is hate one good way to get rid of someone? Ignorance can help? Or face it with bravery?

Why do i ignore at first? Is it that I was too afraid that everything will come right back, that I need to suffer again, and that's why I choose to ignore? Maybe the ignorance will help to reduce any unwanted thoughts and everything will be okay...

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Cinderella 2~


Well, Cinderella and the prince live happily ever after... according to the fairy tale~ But I guess they forget to add in "to be continued"...

What happens after their marriage we never know, well, I kinda have a wild guess, let's me try to tell what happen after their marriage...

First, prince is too busy working and does not have much time for Cinderella... Poor thing Cinderella needs to wait for him to go home everyday, and carrying a pair of twins and clean the house everyday, like her same old life (well, no maids for her)...

He gets to work very early, and comes home very late, before she wakes up, he left, before he's back, she slept... Well, prince needs to work as well, fairy tale is not that fairy tale after all...

Second, the prince has a pretty servant that plays the role of his secretary, who helps him in his work, and takes care of him as well... The prince spent more time with the servant than with Cinderella, hence, he tends to come home really late, sometimes did not even come back...

Cinderella started to suspect, and she confronted the prince, prince admitted that he does not have feelings for Cinderella anymore, as she did not take good care of him or concern about him, but its the servant who's by his side all the time, hence, he filed for a divorce... Poor poor Cinderella needs to go back to her same old life with her stepmother and stepsister, and the only thing she is grateful of is having the pair of twins...

Poor poor Cinderella, being blamed for not spending enough time for him, is it her fault? Is it that she is not fulfilling her responsibilities? Or is it that reality is just cruel? Sorry to fairy tales, but it's not real, there's no happily ever after... Face the reality and live in it~

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Emotions~


I have a diary at home, that I express my feelings, and things that happen in my life, that should be kept in memory. Reading my diary, there's a mixture of happy, sadness, and the most I can see, is my heart felt emotions in my relationships. Can I say I am a compassionate person? I don't know.

I have a mixture of feelings right now, and I think the best way to express it is writing. I am thinking a lot recently, that I no longer able to keep the feelings to myself. People like to keep their feelings, guys especially, but how come girls experience more depression? Is it because we girls cannot cope with it, even though we've express it? Or we experience higher intensity of emotions?

Love, both guys and girls experienced that... It feels sweet, that can put a smile to your face every time you think about him... When things go wrong, the intensity of it, is twice as much of the sweetness you feel... It's always harder to let go of love, than fall in love... If it is easy, I won't be here, doubting my feelings... I feel tired of thinking and thinking and with all the guessing... is it the feeling of love that I have, or feeling of regret? That I'm not satisfy with my own decision?

I try to reduce the feeling, but I cannot... I want to forget, but deep down, I know I don't want to forget, don"t want to let go, I'm still holding on...